One year Ago...

It is amazing how much has changed in a year... One year ago we made the choice to transfer these two embryos. I went back and read over the post I wrote a year ago regarding this and I found it hard to believe how much has changed since then. All the uncertainty, anxiety and hope came rushing back to me from a year ago. I felt so hopeful about our chances. I didn't think we could go through yet another disappointment. It's hard to believe that those two embryos turned into these two precious babies. All the tears, let downs, invasive appointments, long waits in waiting rooms, hour and a half drives to the clinic, loss, needles and money brought us here today. I'd do it all over again to get these two beautiful babies in our lives. I can't imagine life without them...this is the family we were meant to have. Sure, we had to fight like hell for it, but it makes us appreciate it all that much more. I hope everyone still in the trenches gets the family they have been fighting for. It's worth it all.

Tonight we're going on a hot date! It's the first time we're leaving both babies to go out together. I'm really looking forward to a nice uninterrupted dinner. I don't know how I will behave. A martini is calling my name! There are FOUR yes FOUR people coming over to watch the babies! It doesn't take that many, but it makes me feel much better about leaving them knowing there will be so many people here to help. They can be a handful...

Getting ready to go out on a hot date takes a lot more work than it used to. I had to get both babies ready, stock the diapers and wipes (I'm not going to make the babysitters use cloth diapers), get a ton of bibs (we go through about 12-16 bibs a day these babies puke so much!!), burp clothes, extra outfits and blankets ready. Plus I had to clean! I know people don't expect our house to be spotless, but when someone is coming over, I can't stand to have it a mess. I need everything clean and in it's place! So I've had a busy two days cleaning as well.

The babies had their 4 month appointment yesterday so they are both tired. Ugh, I hate those shots!! Evan slept from 8 am - 1pm today because of those damn shots. Since I had only one baby to take care of all morning, I got a taste of what it's like to only have one baby. WOW! It was so easy!! I'll update on stats and whatnot later...

AH! Both babies are up and calling for their mama!! I wonder if the babysitters will ever agree to come watch the babies again after tonight??