Monday, January 23, 2012

Tom Petty is Correct

Come on sing it with me!! The waaaaaiting is the hardest part!!
It's 5 days past the transfer. I took on the attitude that I am pregnant until a test proves I'm not. It's been fairly easy. Sure, I still have my tense moments wondering how I'm going to wait until Friday, but for the most part I've been able to remain fairly calm. I was a complete couch potato from the time we got home from the transfer until today. I am returning to work today, and I'm more then ready to get out of the house.

Here's an exciting run down of what I've been up to: I finally finished Breaking Dawn (really didn't enjoy this book compared to the first 3). Watched several movies (I hope you can't laugh out an embryo because Bridesmaids is hilarious. I love Kristen Wiig). Caught up on Grey's and Pan Am. Cheered on Baltimore and the 49ers (both lost). Played several mindless games on the iPad. You get the picture. Lots of R&R. I've done all I can do.

I've been analyzing every twinge, feeling, cramp and twitch I've experienced over the past few days. I hope they amount to something rather then just my mind playing tricks on me.
I made my work schedule open around the time I assumed the pregnancy test would be. Well we know what we say about people who assume... The test falls on Friday. I work Friday night. How convenient. While I have promised myself to be patient during the 9 day wait (who knew 9 days could take soooooo long?!), Collin and I decided I should pee on a stick (POAS) on Friday morning. I can't bare to think about being home alone when I get the phone call to know my fate. At least this way, we'll have an idea of what the results will be so we can both prepare ourselves. If it's negative, and I am a mess, which I suspect I will be, I have decided I will call in sick Friday. No one at work knows what's going on, and I don't know if I'll be able to keep it together for 12 hours with the bad news lingering in my head.

However, until all of this happens, I'm just going to try to stay blissful and think positive. Collin has been awesome at cooking, doing laundry, and taking care of everything so I've been able to focus on relaxing. How many times have I heard I just need to relax in order to have a baby?! I'm giving into that dreaded advice and hoping it helps this time :) The progesterone shots haven't been too bad; my massage massively helped my extremely sore lower back area. Now I can tolerate them because I feel like we're doing them for a reason. Sure it's a 1 1/2 inch needle going into my back, but I'm doing it for the little baby/babies that surely must be growing in my uterus. Sounds crazy, but it works.

I also have to share this interaction I had with Collin. He went upstairs to fetch my estrodiol medication for me and came down with one of his infamous 'I'm up to no good' grins. I asked him what he was smiling about and it went something like this:
Me-Seriously, what's so funny?
C-Well, uh, never mind.
Me-No tell me what you are laughing at!
C-Well, I've only had two anatomy and physiology classes, so I'm not an expert, but how many vaginas are you supposed to have?
He handed me the med bottle and pointed to the label. We both busted out laughing.

He's been amazing helping me stay sane the past 5 days. 5 days down. 4 days to wait.


Nichole said...

"Laughing out an embryo" LOL I'm not the only one that has been worried about this. That and sneezing!

Speaking of the medication and multiple vaginas, Farmie, (bless his heart) has mentioned a news article about 5 times to me this week about some woman with two vaginas... I'm sure your hubby will be just as entertained with this as mine is. OH! and she also made the comment about having to be careful about getting pregnant in both at the same time... WTF!

Will POAS really show this early??? I never even thought of doing that, but now.... It would be really fantastic to see a little plus sign or two lines or a digital read that says PREGNANT

Lilly said...

I love that! Makes you wonder if whoever programs those labels isn't sitting there wondering "I wonder if people actually read these directions"... :)

GOOD LUCK, btw! my fingers are crossed for ya!

Jill said...

Whah ha ha! Love the label. Ugh, waiting is hard, keep busy is my only advice. Good luck this week! And don't worry, my doc stressed that there is absolutely nothing one can do to prevent implantation - twisting, sneezing, coughing (yes he actually listed all of those). I kept repeating this all last week.

Janet said...

Almost there...hang in there and please know I am thinking of and sending lots of good vibes your way!

LOL...the label was too funny!

Our Journey Through This Lovely Life said...

LOL that label is Hilarius! Sending you good vibes for Friday!!

Charlotte said...

Hang in there! If you get really desperate you can play the game I always used in school when I got bored: don't look at a clock and try to count to 60 at the same speed as the seconds are ticking by. When you're done, check to see how close you were - usually, in my case, not at all. Play it five times and five whole minutes will have gone by! There's also the classic "practice writing things in cursive" and "how many dirty words can I write on this calculator." I don't recommend eating paste, but you know, whatever works for you.

Julie said...

Fingers crossed Amber! Friday can't come soon enough :)!

Amber said...

@Nichole-Loved the story about the lady with two vaginas. Maybe if I had one more getting pregnant wouldn't be so hard. I'm not sure about POAS, but from my Google research, it seems like a lot of women have had success.

Thanks for all the well wishes everyone!! I may start staring at the clock today...I'm getting VERY anxious!