I haven't written anything in almost a year. A YEAR!! Wow. I have thought about it most weeks, but I couldn't ever find the time to actually make it happen. My free time (when the kids are napping) is typically spent cleaning up the disaster Evan and Ella created, prepping/cooking dinner, folding laundry, stuffing diapers, etc. I sneak in a few naps here and there (working late nights makes me tired) and sometimes I get time to just sit and watch TV. I rarely thought I'd have the time to get out the computer and write. Although I MISS IT!!! So here I am, attempting to write again.
has changed in the past year that I suddenly feel confident enough to
have enough time to commit to writing again? A lot. I kept holding on to
the 'it gets easier when they turn one' idea, but one came and went and
it was still so damn hard. Honestly, I have struggled a lot in the past
year. I've struggled to stay afloat more often than not. I've struggled
to keep friendships alive. I've struggled finding time for myself. I've
struggled with keeping calm when my wild children want to climb on
everything, scream on every outing and had weeks of not sleeping through
the night. I struggled to find a balance between complete exhaustion
from working, but needing to get out of the house. I've struggled with
keeping a happy and healthy marriage; we've argued more with each other
in the past 2 years than we have in the past 13 years I've known my
husband. I could go on and on, but I think you get the picture. This has
not been easy for me/us. However, I feel like it is FINALLY getting
easier. I can go on outings successfully. Evan and Ella are listening
more every day. They are certainly always the most energetic kids around
most days, but it's getting easier. At almost 2.5 years of age I have
finally gotten to the point where I think life is getting a bit easier.
It's certainly not easy, but it is so much better than it was at any
point in the past 2.5 years.
do I go from here? I honestly don't know where to start. I can't catch
you up on what has happened in the past year. There has been too much.
I'm just going to start with what's going on now.
had Evan and Ella evaluated shortly after their second birthdays
because speech wasn't happening. Both scored high in all developmental
areas except for speech. Ella was borderline on the requiring speech
services scale. Evan was as well, but since he was less cooperative
during the eval, he came out needed services and Ella did not. I
completely disagreed with the eval, but figured we would check out
speech therapy anyway. It took months to actually get speech therapy
started. We are finally going once a week for an hour. We've only been a
few times. I can't say it's helping with speech, but it's very
structured and Evan is learning to listen and follow directions well.
I'm not worried about their speech. They understand everything we are
saying and follow directions. They 'talk' all the time, but not in words
we can understand. They understand each other though. I do get
frustrated when they have temper tantrums because they want something
and I don't know what they want because they won't say it!! It seems to
happen at meal time a lot. I am more than ready for the language
explosion to happen.
the evals, there was some concern regarding Evan's attention span. He
is such a spirited little boy... It was suggested we get him in a
Mother's Day Out program or preschool. Having him be in a structured
environment would help him a bit with his attention. Most of the MDO
programs go from 9-2 and they nap at them. I know my kids would have a
hard time napping in that kind of environment and if they don't nap well
they are complete and utter screaming piles of toddler by the evening.
To save my sanity, we went with a preschool program that goes from 9-12
twice a week. They've been going for a month now and I can notice a big
difference! Evan is listening better and following directions better.
He does well in school and they have no concerns about him. He even sits
during circle time. Mind blown. Ella is doing great too. They are both
very social and love the crafts and activities.
could go on a lot longer, but nap time is coming to an end soon, so I'm
going to have to wrap this up for now. I wonder if anyone will read
this? It's been so long....