Tuesday, October 1, 2013

ONE YEAR!

I'm back baby!!! I've been following along with most of your blogs still, but I just haven't found the time to even comment. I am lame. Most of the time my free time from the babies has been spent doing laundry, cleaning, prepping food for when they wake up, cooking us meals etc. Things have calmed down some and now that they are napping well (sometimes it would take me 30-45 min to get Evan to GO to sleep. By the time I got him down Ella would wake up 15 min later). It's been hard. I could write 37 posts on how difficult of a baby Evan has been...

Yup, one year. Holy shit. My babies are one year old! We have survived a year. It has been the most trying year of my life thus far, but I don't think I'd change much....

Where do I begin? I struggled a lot in the past year....from dealing with reflux, colic, lack of sleep, trying to adjust to being a SAHM who works still on the side, lots of puke (I think our entire house got a once over coat of puke), PPD (I had a worse case of this then I admit to most people. Why am I ashamed of it? I had the baby blues hard core. There I said it), not having family close by to help, and a lot of emotions surrounding our not ideal birthing experience, etc. Sure, it has been difficult, but I could also give a list of positive things as well....

Anyway, I guess this is what kept me away from blogging. I was just trying to survive each day and some days were filled with tears and feeling inadequate and I wanted to hide from myself more than share it with the world. I am in a good place (mostly. Being a mom of twins is an interesting experience), and I miss blogging. I miss writing down what I'm thinking. Maybe someone out there misses reading my take on things too?




We had a first birthday party for Evan and Ella. It was a lot of work to prepare for and took us about a week to recover from, but it was so much fun! We are not throw big parties type of people at all, but we've waited a long time for this and went all out. Both of our parents/EE's grandparents came down from IA/WI and we had about 25 friends here as well. There theme was Oktoberfest and they had leiderhosen and dirndl outfits for the occasion made by my amazing grandma. 

Neither one of the babies have been sick in the past year. At all. I know now they will both have the flu next week since I said that, but of course on their birthday Ella wasn't feeling well. She has a runny nose and was generally cranky. Fun. Of course she wanted to be held by mom or dad only the entire party. They had their one year appointment 2 days later and turns out she was suffering from allergies. We got her some children's clar.itan and she was good as new! Poor Ella...

I could write a lot more, but I'm going to ease my way back into this thing. This post has a lot of words, but doesn't really say much of anything. Ha! I'm rusty at this blogging thing...

6 comments:

waiting and wishing said...

Yay! You're back! Those birthday pictures are beyond cute- I'm looking forward to hearing more from a fellow twin mama!!

Jen said...

so glad you're back!!!!

Jules said...

YOU'RE BACK YOU'RE BACK YOU'RE BACK!!! My stalking worked HAHAHA!!! No, but seriously, there is so much more to this post than you are admitting. It's hard. This twin thing. It's fucking hard. And writing is therapeutic -- well, it is to me! So I really hope you go back into your memory and write about those feelings. Because I want to know about them. I feel like I've been very candid about my experience on my blog but I still feel that I have a lot I didn't say because I was trying not to seem ungrateful. So yeah. Writing good.

Jen said...

I meant to write more earlier, but I ran out of time! Definitely glad you're back, but I'm sorry to hear that you've been struggling. I'm sure it was hard to admit, and I think you're brave for doing so. Twins ARE really hard. And being home with them every day and having no help nearby? That sounds rough. It really does. I hope things are getting easier for you!
They are seriously the cutest kids EVER

Mrs. F said...

So glad to see this post. I was just thinking about you this week. I finally posted an update after a couple months off. I've been a terrible blogger I don't think anyone reads anymore and things are just busy so I guess the motivation to write hasn't been there. The first year is tough. You made it and it is going to get so much better. Love the pictures of your little ones! Such cute outfits.

Ms DanL said...

Welcome back! Congratulations on the 1 year mark. The days pass slowly, but the years fly by. Looking forward to your future posts!