Happy Friday!! I'm contemplating going private with my blog. For a while I was getting lots of spam comments on certain posts so I changed my commenting. Now, I noticed I'm getting hits from a porn site! Ewww!! Why would that happen? Will you still follow me if I go private? I love the support I have gotten on here and I don't want to lose it. If I go private, I will be able to post way more info. I'm always apprehensive about what I'm putting out there right now because you just never know who is reading.
My name is Amber and I am an anti-dentite. I loath the dentist. Having to go to the dentist, even for a routine cleaning, gives me extreme anxiety. It gets to the point that I think about it a lot in the days prior to the appointment and have trouble sleeping the night before. (Do you think I could ask him to prescribe me anti-anxiety meds?) I've had no major medical work done. I only have had cavities. Never even braces or anything like that. Why do I have such a fear? I think my fear stems from the dentist I went to as a kid. He was very critical and would use scare tactics to convince me my teeth would fall out if I didn't floss every day and brush after every meal. I do floss. I do brush. I have nice teeth. I don't know if it's from him or what, but I dislike going.
I had a cleaning this week. Thankfully we have been able to find a dentist in TN that we both like. I am VERY picky about my dentists. I HATE being lectured. The dentist we see has a very dry sense of humor and I guess I do as well, and the one time I had cavities filled by him we were cracking jokes the whole time. Despite liking our dentist (I've tried a lot of dentists out over the years and ditched them all), I still don't like the dentist. I think you get my point by now....time to move on!
My appointment was in the morning so C could stay home with the babies while I was gone. I went in and had my cleaning-NO CAVITIES! and came home. My cleaning was at 9:00 and I was in and out within 30 minutes. Maybe it's just because I live in the South, but I get raving reviews about my teeth these days. It's a bit of a self esteem booster. If you don't feel great about your teeth, move to the South!! I've never gotten so much praise about my teeth..
I got home around 9:45 and Evan was still sleeping. Yes. That's right. He got up around 6 to eat and went back to sleep and was still asleep when I got home at 9:45. Are you kidding me? My husband had Ella up, bathed and dressed. He did some laundry and started our taxes. He said it was 'easy.' Ughhhh!!!
I am fairly certain I swore when I cam home and heard he how easy everything was. C claimed that Evan was still asleep and Ella was all smiles because of his overall calming attitude. Ha!! I swore again at this statement. That man is calming as hell...how he does it, I don't know. I wish I could bottle that up and sell it!!
Some days are a struggle for me... I don't want the babies to have a horrible morning, but it would be nice if they would have been a tad fussy so he could get a taste of what I deal with on a day to day basis. I get frustrated because I struggle some days and I complain to C about it and I often say that 'he doesn't understand' because he's not here all day. I hate using that line 'you don't understand' but I'm not sure how to convey my feelings in another way... He always says he doesn't claim to know how difficult it is and does his best to understand my feelings, but he just doesn't know... Unless you are in the weeds with two babies, I don't think you can really grasp how frustrating the situation can be.
I swear, every time he is alone with the babies, things go smoothly. On one hand, this is great because I feel better about leaving them with him. On the other hand, I would like for him to struggle (just once!) so he could get a better sense of why I have a difficult time some days. Does this make sense? Am I a bad person for thinking this?
Maybe it is his overall calming disposition or maybe he is just damn lucky. When he left to go to work, Evan woke up instantly and was in a full on demanding mood. Go figure!! I don't know how he does it....
In other news, I'm pulling out of my slump. I scheduled a hair appointment for myself and I'm chopping off my hair! I figured a change is exactly what I needed! I LOVE getting my hair done...it's such a relaxing experience for me. Goodbye shoulder length hair!
Have a great weekend everyone!!